Strengths and Positives - Inner Truths and Bipolar

Strengths and Positives  Inner Truths and Bipolar

Personal power and self worth are hallmarks to maintaining balance, strength, individualism, and inner truth. Daily events will tax, stretch our sanity, and push our emotions to a point of splintering. The one key component is to understand with mood disorders the strength must come from within, with help from family.

I have often remissed numerous times on chances, and opportunities that have flown below the radar. I would have to stretch, pull, and pluck to grab something attainable. For some time I would feel worthless, insecure, and unsure of my motivations because situations would not pan out. But I would try again, and again like a stubborn persistent man only to realize later it wasn't meant for me.

I stopped planning on anything and tried to exist. Exist in a vacuum that was a protective sheath from people, criticisms, and holed myself into inner isolation. Humans need social interaction, being an isolationist whom needs to control ones environment can create friction with the self. Once I figured out that being alone all the time does not gain much but bitterness, anger, and emptiness.

Along in my journey of self discovery, exploration, one of the most uncharacteristic aspects I ever did was do damage to myself. It is a weird motif to witness ones own breakdown, but I hit a lowest point ever in my life, all I had was things, acquaintanceship, but little to remark on with experience. I also chose a very negative relationship that would be my catharsis for change.

I had to rebuild, take each day as it's own thing. Planning on small goals. Rebuild upon my self worth, and keys of inner strength. My character took a double negative impact, people who knew me didn't know the real me, and this ended up being a judgement against my character. When this befalls a person this very situation announced a clear truth to me, I realized I was alone.

I had sought validation, and acceptance with situations and people whom did not have my best interests in mind. I also learned that in order to succeed at something I believe in, I have to go at it alone. There is nothing wrong with having a viewpoint that does not gel with the status quo, in fact I find that to be my most admirable quality. I stick to my own guidance when it comes to fads, and the such. 

All of my strength is in my strict sense of personal control. I weigh constantly the pros and cons. I research before I embark. These tools and skills I have gained in my life are put towards my future. I don't walk with tepidness, I walk with a purpose and intrepidity. Sometimes I can be inflexible on certain aspects because I know my limitations. I don't go outside of my limits, because I know what will happen.

I've spent years engrossed in a personal project that gave me insight into my predilections, I feel I am hungry for learning, open to traveling, and marveling at the human spirit. I've chosen to look at the positives rather than deconstruct because for a long time that was all I did.

No matter, one with bipolar and any other mood disorder the key thing is to remember that you must not get despondent. Life gives us many things to learn and challenge ourselves with. I couldn't be who I am without the lessons, and missteps in my journey. It has taken me awhile to accept that this is the norm, and I have to work within my limitations. Its not a weakness but guidance to where I am going.

So take some time to really look at your life, patterns, and the surroundings you've been accustomed to, look long and deeply about the point and where you are. I treat this as looking into the well of the deep self. Truth lay in not so mysterious places, and that there is a strength I've harnessed. Thanks for reading.

B.