Days can be a struggle, and days can be smooth, the one thing that always complicates is having a disorder. My quest with my disorder is an ongoing lifelong endeavor. Most of my trials and tribulations have stemmed from a lot of anguish, sorrow, and anger. I've been through so many outlets for help/services, I've became numb to the intake process. I've seen first hand the attitude and misunderstanding of having a disorder/illnesses, and I've come here to share some of my successes and failures.
Mental illness is not an albatross. Mental illness I believe is a gift, like having six toes, or no legs. I am a person like this. What I feel is valid and needs to be respected. Though I may not have the predilections to have what typical normal people have, I've looked at my situation as a blessing. Yet I sometimes feel like a curse. No amount of reality can smack a person so vividly, without the idea that somehow things work in mysterious ways. I am not a man of great faith, yet what I do know through my travels I accept very few things at face value. I am a deep introspective person, I carry myself with best intention, I own my behavior, and take accountability for actions I partake. Having an illness needn't preclude one from responsibility.
The obvious aspects to being a individual with a disorder can be stressful, and filled with all kinds of distortion (family, employment, relationships). I feel its crucial to understand who you are as a person, know what triggers you, and mitigate any aspect hindering your recovery.
It is with great respect that those who traverse this blog, utilize some of the skills, and tools I've had to stumble forth, and go through. Every step a person takes with any disorder takes hard work, determination, and wit to continue surviving.
Lastly, I believe bipolar is an abject lesson in historical construction, as it is learning about family history, what triggers, and monitoring frequent euphoric tendencies. Sometimes it takes a lot of inner strength to acknowledge, and accept these limitations. I have learned how to live with my situation, and keep tabs on many struggles I incur daily. As with history bipolar can make a person repeat the same mistakes if they aren't cognitive of their situation. I've learned this, and I believe everything is constructed around a theme, or idiom i.e. a lesson that must be learned for that day. I am hopeful you take the time to understand, and share with me some of the joys and sorrows living with a mental disorder. Thanks for reading
B.
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